When You Know You've Done Enough

As a parent of a type 1 diabetic child, I struggle with the issue of, "Have I done enough as a parent to prepare her for handling things on her own?"
How do you REALLY know you've done enough?

Until you're put into a situation, then you really don't know. But a few days ago, I got my validation that as a parent, I've prepared Kacey to handle an "emergency" situation on her own.

So let me tell you how things happened.....

I love my Blackberry. It's 3 years old and it was past time for an upgrade but I was hanging on to it til I absolutely HAD to upgrade. The last 2 months, it's been causing me more stress than any Momma should have to deal with! It's been powering down on it's own and then taking 10-15 minutes to power back up. Those of you that have children with diabetes know how important having a phone is. That being said....on Tuesday afternoon, I picked Kacey up from school at 2:30pm and the conversation went something like this:

Kacey: Mom! Why didn't you answer your phone when I called?
Me: It never rang?!?! What's wrong?
Kacey: You gave me a heart spell today!! (her version of "heart attack")
Me: What happened?!?!
Kacey: I called you at 1:00 and your phone went to voicemail.
***insert my mind racing as to where I was at 1pm? Ahhhh....yes in the kitchen with Kayleigh and the phone had powered down...AGAIN!***
Me: My phone was acting funky again. Whats wrong?
Kacey: My pump ran out of insulin!!!
**insert a gasp and a gulp! You can imagine the paranoia that I went into because it was now 2:30pm**
Me: Why didn't you call me back? You should have kept trying!
Kacey: Mom!
Me: You should have let the nurse fill it!
Kacey: MOM!
Me: Get your stuff out and we will fill it now!
Kacey: MOM! LISTEN TO ME!
Me: **quiets down** What?
Kacey: It's already done. I did it on my own.
Me: You did WHAT?!?!
Kacey: When you didn't answer, I started to panic and then I sat quiet and cleared my head and knew what I had to do. I opened my case in my purse and I paniced again because I didn't have a new cartridge set. We forgot to put another one in there. But I got my spare kit in the nurses office and that didn't have a set either. It only had the old set. So I disconnected my pump. Took out the old cartridge. Unhooked the tubing. Put the needle from my Cozmo cartridge on my Ping cartridge and then I used tweezers and filled my pump to 70 units. I knew it would give me enough til I got home and we could refill a new one. Then I carefully got the airbubbles out, filled new tubing and reconnected. Please don't be mad at me for using my old cartridge.
Me: ***sitting mouth wide open** So you filled your pump and you've been reconnected since then?
Kacey: Yes! ***smiling*** I did what I needed to do to get the job done! Nurse J kept asking me if that was ok to do and I told her I gotta do what I gotta do because I need my insulin!

At this point I didn't know whether to scream and yell at my phone or cry tears of joy because she did what she did. She did it! She handled an emergency situation in an adult manner. She got the job done and she did a darn good job at it! I smiled all the way home through my tears. I knew in my heart that I'd done what I needed to prepare her to handle diabetes in a pinch.

Getting a new pump is always a scary thing. She's helped with site changes before but never unsupervised. So this was a BIG deal for us! And the most important thing is...she calmed herself enough to work through the process to keep her safe until she got home.

One word....AMAZING!!

Letting Go

My head hurts. Not just my head...my brain feels like it's ready to explode. My life isn't consumed with a normal 9am-5pm job. My life is consumed with the job of being a mother and there are days it's overwhelming and all I want to do is crawl in bed and pull a blanket up and SLEEP!

Of course, my lack of sleep lately is probably why I'm so emotional but I need to get these feelings out before I explode....blech!

I have so many things swirling through my head making it hard for me to just REST at night. For one night, I'd like to lay down and not think about anything else. But when I lay down....

Did Kacey check her sugar?
Did the girls get their homework done?
Oh yeah, that load of clothes needs to be put in the dryer.
Crap! I forgot to give the dog water.
Did I let the dog out before I layed down?
I need to write that note for Kacey being sick.
I forgot to sign those permission slips.
What do I have on the calendar for the rest of the week?
Ugh! I need to get some groceries before the cubbards look like Mother Hubbard's
Graduation is getting close, have to start planning the party!
Crap again! I forgot to order those yearbooks!
Speaking of graduation...still have to order cap and gown too! Dang it!

This is just a glimpse of what runs through my head. The girls have so much going on with school now, that I work more now than when I worked full time getting paid for it. Geesh!

So what's going on? Part of my worry is Kacey isn't back on Dexcom yet. I worry because I don't know what her blood sugars are doing. Is she headed up? Is she dropping? And when shes sleeping it's a nightmare. I do a 11pm check and I'm back up again at 2am and then again at 6am. She's not interested in putting it back on and I'm a wreck. I don't let her know I'm a wreck because I don't want her to feel like she HAS to wear something she's really not wanting to right now just to make me happy. My biggest question is, "Why doesn't she want to wear it?" And out of my 11 year old, all I can get is, "I just don't want to wear another box on the front of my tummy." It bothers me....yes it bothers me REALLY bad. I try an explain how useful the information is but she's insisting that it's HER body and she doesn't NEED Dexcom.

*sigh*

Yeah, she's right! She doesn't NEED it but I DO! I need to learn to let go. I need to learn to just pick my battles and be a Mom some days...not a SUPER Mom. I have to make myself understand that there are some days that I really can't do it all. I know I should be deligating my responsiblities but there are some days that it doesn't seem fair to. But then...what is fair? I remember going to school, riding the school bus to my afterschool job from 3pm-6pm, Mom picking me up and driving me to night college classes from 7pm-10pm, and then coming home and getting homework done and chores. I made it. I turned out fine. So why do I fnd it so hard to hand out those chores like laundry, dishes and floors?

To compact all this, Kayleigh is having problems with blood sugars again. Next month will be a year since hr diagnosis of Hypoglycemia. Over the past year, she's had several occasions where she's dropped low and most of them were from not eating every 2-3 hours. All that being said, about two months ago, she got really sick. She has a cough, bad head cold and the all around crappy feeling. She was home from school and didn't bounce back as fast as she normally would. And then about 3 weeks ago...the grumpies and sick stomach after eating came. I shoved aside those Momma-gut feelings that started to flood my brain. No...Nope....NO! I will NOT let those thoughts flood my brain! The more I shoved them out, the more they came. She was thirsty and water bottles were disappearing at lightening speed. I heard her getting up in the middle of the night to pee. She was tired all the time. She slept REALLY sound (something she NEVER does). More thoughts....NOOOOOOOOOOOO!!! And then....the meter readings. She checked her blood sugar to find a 160. She was feeling crappy and by chance thought she'd check and see. She hadn't eaten in a few hours and she was feeling sweaty and sick at her stomach again. REALLY?!?!

So here I sit, tears streaming down my face, all this time my Momma gut keeps saying the "D" word but my brain shoves it out. Her sugars have not been above 180 yet and her highest fasting was 110. I know I shouldn't worry but when you have a child that shows those symptoms that you ignored the first time, you know your child had that nasty illness prior to this and now you have meter readings higher than normal....you can't help but think about it!

Seven months before Kacey was diagnosed, she had a double ear infection, sinus infection and bronchitits. About three months before she was diagnosed, she had the sick stomach after eating, thirsty, pottybreaks at night, and grumpies all day long. The week before she was diagnosed, she was wetting the bed at night and throwing up along with diarrhea. We didn't know it was diabetes so we had no way of testing to see what her blood sugars were.

So what do we do? Sit and wait. Journal. Test. Write down symptoms. Test more. Wait. Wait. Wait. It's nerveracking!

I need to learn to LET GO! I need to give it to God and let him take care of it instead of trying to be Super Mom. I need to pray and have peace knowing that if God brings me to it then He will bring me through it. I need to step out of the quickstand and stand on solid ground.

OK.... *breathe* ....I feel like I just had diarrhea of the mouth and my thoughts are jumbled but at least they're out of my head...for now!

Dexcom Downtime

Dexcom has been our saving grace for about a year now. Kacey has worn it nonstop since we got it and if it was left up to me she'd never take it off. BUT...something happened last week that made me rethink things a little.

Kacey came down with another cold. Stuffy nose. Cough. Sore throat. Sneezing. Just the miserable sicky junk. As I approached the pharmacy, I felt my throat tighten. I hate going there! HATE IT! I told the pharmacist her symptoms and he nicely walked from behind the counter, over to the OTC meds and handed me a bottle of Triaminic. Ummmm...usually I wouldn't second guess them but I asked him if she should be taking it since she's 154 pounds now. He looked at me in shock "Oh! Well I guess we need something stronger, huh?" ...."Well...DUH!" So he slid down to the adult OTC meds and handed me a box of Tylenol Cold. "This should do the trick!" I looked at him and again I questioned.... "This has acetaminophen in it, right?" ...."Yes mam! That will help her feel better." At this point I felt like I could vomit. "Well sir, you see, she's a type 1 diabetic and she is on a continual glucose monitor and she can't take anything with acetaminophen in it because it messes up her readings on it." And with a puzzled look he said "Acetaminophen shouldn't have anything to do with the readings on her blood sugar meter."

***insert banging my head against the wall***

"Sir, it's a continual glucose monitor in her arm, not her blood sugar meter." ...."Oh! Ummm...ok!" You could tell her had no clue what the hell I was talking about. So I asked him what I could give her that would help her get better that didn't have any Tylenol in it. He walked back and forth and picked up a few things and put them back and then turned to me and said "Maybe you should call her doctor and see what they recommend." GRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!! How in the world do these pharmacists get their license? Ugh! By this point, Kacey just felt so rotten that I needed to get her something that would help her even if it meant Dexcom going wonky. So I grabbed the box of Tylenol Cold and checked out up front. I gave her a dose and about 3 hours later we see "???". Yep I knew it was gonna happen. It came time for her next dose and she still had "???" And we made the decision to take the Dexcom site out since it was time for a new sensor anyway. This was last Wednesday....Thursday....Friday.....Saturday.....Sunday....Monday....Tuesday....and today is Wednesday! ONE WEEK with NO DEXCOM! How did we ever manage...ugh! Anyway, last night Kacey said something to me that really struck me wrong. She said "Mom, please don't get mad if I tell you something." ***sigh*** "I've kind of liked not having Dexcom on for a week." (I gulped!) "I have to wear 4 things on my body....Dexcom, my pump, Dexcom site and my pump site...and I liked only having 2 things." She caught me so off guard but once I sat and thought about it. It's HER body but I'm the selfish one that wants her wearing Dexcom all the time. Don't get me wrong, she loves it so she knows what her arrow is all the time but since she was home for Christmas break, she liked having the break from it. Who am I to tell her she has to wear it all the time? Who am I to make her wear 4 things instead of 2? It's her body so she should be able to choose, right?

So I sat down with her and we had a long talk. I agreed with her that sometimes she just needs a break. She can't take a pump break unless she goes back to shots but if she ever wants another Dexcom break then all she needs to do is tell me and as long as she doesn't have anything busy going on then we can take that break. She smiled and said "Mommy, thats why I love you so much! You let me make my own diabetes choices." ***sigh*** I tried to hold back tears and sometimes its difficult to let them make their own decisions but when it comes to "optional" things, she should be allowed to choose what is right for her!"

How much freedom do you give your child to help make diabetes decisions? Have they ever asked for Decom breaks? If you are on Dexcom, do you ever get burnt out and want a Dexcom break?

By the way...sorry for being a little MIA for December. It was a BUSY month! I have lots to share and now that the new year is here, the girls are back to school after being out for 2 weeks and I can get back to writing some more. I have so much to update....lots of good things happening in the West house! :) Happy New Year 2012!

Activity Night

I had a little "inspiration" after speaking to a few parents about this and thought I'd get some feedback.

Activity Night. It's one of those things I've never really liked.

What is it? Well funny you ask because the definition of "Activity Night" in my mind is different from what really happens there these days. When I went to school, "Activity Night" included dancing to music from a DJ, basketball, ping pong, board games, refreshments served in the cafeteria, and walking around with friends. I remember having fun those nights and dancing til I was a soaked sweaty mess and running out to meet my Mom who was waiting in the car to pick me up when it was over. I remember rattling off about what songs they played and who was there.

When it finally came time for Kayleigh to attend her first "Activity Night", she went and when I picked her up she said it was boring and she didn't want to go to another one. So from 6th-8th grade, she only attended one activity night and then she attended her 8th grade dance.

Now that Kacey is in middle school, it's that time again. She missed the first one because we had plans but from what we heard after that night, she really didn't miss anything. You see, these "Activity Nights" these days are MUCH different from the ones I went to. Girls follow the boys around. Wait...they practically chase them! They're holding hands. They're slow dancing with boys. They're walking around and stopping to "talk" in corners. BOY CRAZY girls! So where does this leave me? Kacey is NOT into boys. She's been in a girls group that is teaching her to "guard her heart" and not give it out to any boy that walks around. She's being taught morals and values about how to stay pure to herself and follow a path that is faithful to God and His ways. So why in the world would I take her up there and subject her to this wrong? Should she be dropped off and given the chance to be in the middle of all of that on purpose? Should I discourage her from this behavior? After all, we've had the talks about it before and how middle school boys and girls are NOT supposed to "date" and she should never be left in a room alone with a boy. Do I trust her? Absolutely! But I feel like I'm sticking her in a situation that she shouldn't be in. I feel "Activity Nights" are NOT being monitored properly. Now, in defense of that first night, I was not there. I did not chaperone. My child did not attend. BUT...I listened to several parents talk about what their kids came home with. So why in the world would I put my child in that situation. Even if she asked to go...I would say "No."

So how about you? Would you let your child attend an "Activity Night" that you knew consisted of boy/girl dancing at 11-12 years old? Would you let your child have a boyfriend/girlfriend at 11-12 years old? Should middle schoolers be dating? Should they be allowed to hold hands and "talk" in dark corners? Do you think that this is a problem in todays society?

And just FYI....not long ago there were more than 10 girls pregnant in Kayleigh's high school. I know I was one of those unsupervised teens and I was just graduated when I got pregnant....BUT...is this a problem? Are these kids being left unsupervised to raise themselves and that is whats getting them into these problems? Are they not involved in enough extracurricular activities? Do they not have enough homework? LOL!

I'm leaving this open for a little debate. Please keep it nice. But I'm just wondering if I see the world a little different than most Moms or do I see it the same way and there are just too few of us to make a change?

Tis' The Season

Whew! Life certainly got busy the last two weeks. Things seem to fly this time of year! I'm finally able to sit for a few minutes to update.

The Power Pump Girls are doing GREAT! Kacey settled in nicely with the extra button pushing steps on the Animas pump compared to the Cozmo pump. She is LOVING that remote feature and when you ask her if she misses Goober, she quickly says "Nope!". Could I ask for a better transition? Nope! I am pleased we made the switch for her but I can honestly say...those 2am checks take a little longer since there are a few more steps involved. And what do I miss most? THE ALERTS! The alert for lows....the alert for highs...the alert for site changes. *sigh* But I guess if I had to give those up in exchange for the remote and a very happy baby girl...then I am happy that we did it.

We finally got all the Christmas decorations up inside. That is such a chore! But now my house feels so cozy and ready for the holidays. We still can't get the outside done yet because the ground is too wet. Guess thats the price we pay for living in a flood zone!

Each year around this time, we choose an angel from the Angel Tree. We've done this since the girls were little. We choose one for each girl, as close to their age as we can. This year, the girls decided to change the plans a bit.

They chose to be a Santa to a Senior living in a nursing home/assisted living center. As they made their way around the tree to choose the person they would be buying for, I listened to their coments.

"Wow! This lady is 80."

"Do you think they will know us?"

"Do they have family to bring them presents?"

"I wonder if we can visit them?"

And then....Mabel. Who is she? What kind of life did she lead? None of that mattered to Kacey. All she saw was "Diabetic candy and white socks". Yep...there was an instant connection! I felt like my heart grew 10 times it's size and I felt my eyes well up with tears. Kacey immediately grabbed this ornament off the tree! "I want her Mommy!"..."She has diabetes too!"..."She needs good socks for her feet!"..."I wonder if she has diabetes all her life?" She was spouting stuff and jumping around with excitement like she'd just won the lottery. She didn't care that this lady was in a nursing home. She didn't care that she was 80 years old. She didn't see the simple things she needed for Christmas...things that tugged at my heart strings. She only saw the connection she had with her.

Kayleigh chose Olivia. She wanted some of the same things that Mabel did. It didn't matter that she was 80 years old. Kayleigh just wanted someone to buy for this year. 

As the days passed, we purchased what these ladies needed. But the girls kept asking questions like, "Can we go visit them?"..."Can we take them presents in person?"..."I wonder if they can talk?"..."Do you think they have family that comes to visit them?" Some of the conversations really choked me. It's easy to explain the Angel Tree to the girls. It's for kids less fortunate. But how do you explain the Santa to a Senior? Especially when they ask some of those difficult questions. My girls felt this heart tug and wanted to deliver these presents in person. How do I tell them "No"? I knew we couldn't visit them...or could we? The whole process is supposed to be anonymous anyway. So I sat them both down and explained that their hearts are in the right place and if they wanted to write cards out for them both then we could put it inside the bag so they knew a child shopped for them this year. I didn't dare tell them that the card would probably be trashed when the gifts were picked up for wrapping. They were both so excited to write to these ladies and once again my heart exploded with love.

I've done my best to raise my kids on the straightest path, despite the crooked world around them. I've worked hard to instill morals and values in them ....and encouraged them to stand strong when everyone else around them is tempted. It's hard...very hard...but no one said parenting would be easy. I've been open and honest with both of them and I think that is the key to it all. We talk about things, we pray about things and they're slowly but surely beginning to see how God is working through them. And that is how I was able to explain it all in a nutshell.....God put you in front of that tree. You don't know this older lady but God does. God knows her needs and He chose you to help Him with it. It doesn't matter what age she is...a senior from the tree or a child from the angel tree...the bottom line is you took the time to help someone in need....and for that, you will be blessed. God blesses those who listen to Him and are good and faithful servants. You don't have to be personally connected to the person to help them.

How did they respond? With smiles and tears in their eyes! They knew they'd done something good this year and it was a GREAT feeling! As a matter a fact...I asked them both when we got to the store to deliver the bags..."How does your heart feel?"
Kacey: "It feels better than Christmas morning!"
Kayleigh: "Its an amazing feeling to help someone, Mom!"

Mission accomplished! We did what we were set out to do!

During the holiday season, I urge you to help someone in need. Pick an angel off that tree and buy for a less fortunate child. Make a meal for a struggling family so they don't have to cook. Send a card to someone you may not regularly speak to just to let them know you're thinking of them during the holiday. Give and make God smile and bless you!

And on another happy note....I'm super-dooper excited about winning Hallie's contest! Thank you Hallie for being an amazing D-Momma and awesome blogger. Thank you for working hard to hold contests all month long. Kacey is going to be thrilled with this prize. She's never had a custom made pack from any place online. My Mom has always made her packs for her so this is an extra special prize for us to be able to create one of our own. Thank you to Too-Sweet Boutique for donating this wonderful prize. We're so blessed!!

Introducing.....

THE POWER PUMP GIRLS!

 "Annie" is Kaceys new insulin pump. She's only been hooked up for 24 hours but she adores it already! Without this device, she would have to take a shot every single time she wanted to eat. It holds 200 units of insulin and she gets her infusion set changed every 2-3 days.

"Daisy" is her Continual Glucose Monitoring System. This shows us blood sugars in real time and helps us identify trends and Kacey is able to see her blood sugar rising and falling and treat it before it becomes a danger.

"Pippi" is her blood sugar meter and remote. With a few simple touches of a few buttons, she is able to administer her insulin by this remote instead of pulling her pump out. She's only had this device for 24 hours and she's in love with it! She can now have the freedom to tuck her insulin pump away and wear the dresses she wants to without having to go diving up her dress to pull her pump out.

All three of these wonderful girly devices keep Kacey alive every day. We're so thankful to their power and individuality. Each of them plays such a special part in making sure Kacey stays on track with her diabetes care.

We're so blessed to have such a wonderful insurance company. Yeah, I know I've had my share of gripes with them but this time...Blue Cross Blue Shield...you rocked the process! It was only about 2 weeks from the time we started paperwork til the time the new pump was in our hands. We're also blessed that we only had to come out of pocket $102 for a $5000 device. Believe me....the power of prayer WORKS! We prayed every single day about this and I had friends praying for us to make sure this was possible. THANK YOU everyone!!

TRUE LOVE!!

Ping Hookup

Today we had our pump training for the new Animas Ping that Kacey will be hooked up to.

Arriving in the Diabetes Center and waiting for our favorite CDE to come in for training.

Our amazing CDE sitting with Kacey and showing her how to operate the pump. They're linking up the systems for the first time here. Kristen said "They're married" and Kacey said "Nope they're best friends"...LOL!

Kacey holding an Inset 30. She's really wanting to try her sites on her own but doing the Comfort Shorts, she just can't do them so we're thinking about switching to the Inset 30 but Kacey wanted to try it first to see if thats what she wants. After some convincing, Kacey agreed to let our CDE helped me put one in. She was too nervous to push the buttons on her own but she was thrilled afterward and said, "Wow! I didn't even feel it!" Ahhhhhh! We're stepping in the right direction!

Look at that smile! :) I haven't seen that during a site change in a LONG time!!

Pure love!! She's so in love with this new system. I'll admit...I was waiting for some tears when it came time to disconnect "Goober" (her Cozmo pump) but she disconnected and was more than ready to hook up to the new pump.

Cheezin as she shows off the PINK site! She was so excited to find out about the colored sites. Guess we'll be asking for some Inset 30's with the next shipment!

Thank you Kristen for being such an amazing CDE. Not sure how we'd of made it this far without your support! You've been there since Day One and we're so blessed to have you to turn to each week.

Thank you Heather at Animas for crossing your fingers and praying for this to go through. You were there the night Kacey chose this pump system and we're blessed to have you along for the ride of this journey.

Thank you Blue Cross Blue Shield for being a great insurance company and making this process so easy for us!

Thank you to Frankie's work company for offering such a great insurance! So many families struggle without insurance and you all are kind enough to offer it as well as pay a portion of the monthly due.

Thank you to everyone that prayed for us during this process. God heard those prayers!

Thank you to my family and my BFF, Jillie for listening to my complaints, my worries, my hopes and praying for us during this whole process and before.

Thank you God for being YOU! You held my hand through this process and You never left my side. You heard and answered all our prayers about the pump. You are an Awesome God! We're so blessed!

Ping! Pink! Ping!

It's here!! It's here!! It's really here!!

I've never been so happy to see the UPS man. I know he thought I was insane as I danced on the porch when he pulled up. He wouldn't understand, would he? As I signed for it, I explained there was a $5000 piece of equipment in that box. He laughed and I told him it was Kacey's new insulin pump. He smiled and I knew he didn't understand how important this box was to us.

Kacey was in school when it arrived but I could hardly contain my tears as I popped open the box. I felt the angels singing when I saw this beautiful little machine staring back at me. I wanted to hold it. I HAD to hold it. I pryed open the plastic and I held it for the very first time. I wanted to put the battery in it right away but I felt like I needed to wait for Kacey and we could do that together. So I pulled out the materials and I spent the afternoon reading. I feel like we're going from a flip cell phone to an iPhone! I'm so excited for Kacey.

I ended up taking to box with me when it was time to pick her up from school. It was so exciting to see her face when she saw the box. She walked out with 4 of her friends. They all knew the pump was coming so they were just as excited to see it.
"Wowww Kacey!"
"I'm so happy for you!"
"Kacey, thats so cool! It looks like a little TV"
"I love the pink!"
Those were all comments flying out of their mouths as Kacey held her pump in the box. We got in the car and she said, "Mom! I wanna hold it! Pleaseeeeeeeeeeee! I just want to feel it!" She took it out of the pastic and held it in her hands. She hugged it. She kissed it. She cried.

Sometimes we forget how attached these kids get to these little devices that keep them alive. Some kids get more attached than others do. Some could care less. Some are too young to understand yet.

I remember when Herbie first arrived. It was like watching that bond form all over again. New pump. New name. New bond. I could barely hold my tears back as I watched her in the back seat. When we got home, she ran inside with the box and opened it up. We put the battery in and gave the pump life.

Isnt this the prettiest pink pump you've ever seen?

Check out that smile! She was so excited to see that beautiful screen lit up! She sat in the chair just staring at it. Then I saw the tears flowing again.
"Kacey? Whats wrong?"
"I love it so much but this means I only have a few more days with Goober."
***crap! I knew this was coming!***
"It does and this means you can cherish those last few moments with Goober before you switch over on Tuesday."
"Tuesday?"
"Yes, I talked to Kristen and we go down to the big hospital on Tuesday."
She smiled through her tears. We have a date set. Tuesday at 10am. We have to make the drive down to the big hospital and thats always a bitter sweet moment because it's a reminder of where we were 3.5 years ago. It's a reminder of how sick Kacey was. When we drive that long hour and a half drive, I think back to the drive we made that day she was diagnosed. I replay the events in my head.

We put the batteries in her meter and we talked about how the system will work. She's excited about the remote. She's excited that she won't have to pull her pump out of she doesn't want to. She's excited to have a new life full of dresses again. Yes my friends....sometimes it's the little things that we miss. She won't have to go diving up her dress in search of her pump. It's going to be nice. Then I got a smack in the face. CRAP! This meter will take One Touch strips and we're using Freestyle right now. So I had to call back to the doctor and have them call in a new script for One Touch strips. I know once Kacey starts using the new meter, she won't want to go back to using the other one.

Now the countdown begins...TUESDAY is the DAY! :)