When I went into Kacey's room this morning and gently shook her to wake up, I knew she was going to be "Judy Moody". She turned and gave a grumble...which usually means its going to be a rough morning. She sat up in bed and said "I feel woozy!" .... What? Woozy? She's never used that term before! OK...Kacey, how does "woozy" feel? Mommy it feels like I cant get up. Hmmmm...so was she feeling light headed? Had she sat up too fast? So she gets up and stumbles to the potty and calls out for me. Mommmmmmmmmmm I really feel woozy! I grab the kit on my way to the bathroom. OK Lets test and see whats going on.....beep....beeeeeep..... 245! YIKES! She hasn't woke up with that high of a blood sugar since we were in the hospital!!! OK...so why was she woozy? Was she sick at her stomach because her sugar was high? Was she hungry and needing to eat? I dont know! I hate that I feel so helpless sometimes! So I got her dressed and she couldnt decide what she wanted for breakfast.
Me: Kacey you need to eat...what do you want me to make you?
Kacey: I dont know?
Me: Well I cant make that ... you need to tell me something! How about cereal?
Kacey: Cereal doesnt fill me up!
Me: OK...how about eggs & toast?
Kacey: No I dont feel like eating that.
Me: What about eggs in a tortilla?
Kacey: I dont want that either
Me: OK well you need to tell me something so I can get it done! Are you even hungry?
Kacey: YES Im hungry but I dont know what I want to eat!
Me: What about a cereal bar?
Kacey: No that doesnt fill me up either!
Me: OK then...how about you make your own breakfast then! Im tired of playing this game!
So I leave out of her room and go get dressed. I come back in and shes in the kitchen...getting ready to turn on the stove!!!!!!!! YIKES!!!!
Me: WHAT are you doing?
Kacey: You told me to make my own breakfast!
Me: I didnt tell you to use the stove!
Kacey: I need the stove to cook my eggs for breakfast!
Me: Well you need to tell me next time and you never use this stove without me in here!
Kacey: But Mom you SAID for me to make my own breakfast and I decided I want eggs!
LOL...ok so within 10 minutes she'd decided she wanted eggs and was going to cook them herself since thats what I told her to do....hahaha...how could I get mad at her? After all, I did tell her to make her own breakfast! So I ended up taking over for her...making her breakfast...got thru her shot and she's full and smiling and ready for school.
That still doesnt explain her morning high. She went to bed with a 146 and woke up at a 245...Im guessing we will see that Lantus increase when I fax her blood sugars in tomorrow! Am I selfish to pray she is thru her honeymoon? It's almost bitter-sweet. On one hand Im hoping she is because that means she can go on the pump and our lives can be back to normal....but on the other hand...is it selfish for me to pray for that because then it means the last of those cells that were kicking out insulin have been killed off and she is now totally dependant on the insulin to live a long and healthy life. Its a catch 22!
It's time for her to go to school.... more later :)