Worth It

Some days I have to dig really deep and accept that it's ok to do things to please myself. I'm always pleasing everyone around me and doing things for other people that I forget to take time for myself or I end up with not enough hours in the day for it. Two years ago, I had knee surgery. It sent me in a downward spiral in weight gain and put me in a miserable place. In the last 6 months or so, I've lost 30 pounds and dropped 2 pants sizes but I still feel I have a long way to go. I found out a few weeks ago, I can get a gym membership with the local gym for a little over $20 a month since I work for the county. I used to have a membership to this gym before my knee surgery and I loved it! I loved how I felt after workouts, I loved how it made me look and most of all I was doing something for myself. The last 10 months, since Kacey's diagnosis, I haven't done very much for myself. My days are spent taking care of her and if I'm not the one taking care of her then I spent it worrying about her being taken care of. After chatting with a dear friend lately, I've found my desire to do something for myself that makes me feel good. Tomorrow morning I am going back to the gym! I am going to workout on days that I'm not subbing at school. I must admit, I'm very excited but I'm also very scared. This will be the first time I've really done any heavy exercise since my knee surgery. S-L-O-W...thats how I'm going to take it. I know my knee will never be the same but with some regular exercise I think I'll do just fine!

As for things on the diabetes front....Kacey's numbers have still been amazing. She's had a few highs but nothing really abnormal. They seem to be consistant highs at the 2am checks so not sure whats going on there? I have my meeting with the school this week and next week is Kacey's visit back to the Endo.