In about 5 hours, Kacey will be hooked up to her new Cozmo, "Herbie". I didn't sleep well last night...tossed & turned. I'm feeling pretty nervous and anxious this morning. It's almost that same feeling I felt walking into the class after Kacey was diagnosed 8 months ago. I like to call it "the fear of the unknown". I've read the manual cover to cover....twice! Some things I understand and some things I don't. I've prepared myself with tons of questions. Thats the one thing I wasn't able to do when we went to the diabetes class after diagnosis. I wasn't armed with questions and I was so overwhelmed with information. This time...I know what a bolus is...I know what a basal is...I know what corrections are...so I'm feeling confident there because I speak "diabetes" now. For people that are not connected to diabetes, when I speak, it's like a foreign language and I have to tell them what bolus and basal are, etc. So I'm going into this training with all the knowledge I could have so far (and then a little). I've read "Pumping Insulin" (three times). I've read "Think Like A Pancreas", cover to cover. I've been researching the pumps since Kacey came out of the hospital. The day is finally here and I can hardly believe it!
Last night when Kacey was getting her Lantus, she looked at me with tears in her eyes and said "Mommy, only 4 more days of shots and no more butt shots of Lantus." I hugged her and she just bawled. I asked her what was wrong and she said she was kind of sad. SAD?!? She said that she won't miss taking all the shots but she's sad because she still knows there are so many kids that have to do that. Ugh! Here is a child that should be thinking about herself and how happy she should be that she gets to go from 18 shots every 3 days to ONE...and she's not! She's thinking of others. One of these days, she is gonna make a damn good diabetes nurse! If I haven't mentioned that before, Kacey wants to be a RN/CDE at the hospital she goes to. So anyway, we talked more about "pump feelings" and how she was scared but since she had the site put in already she knew how it felt and she feels better knowing her CDE is going to be there with us.
I'm taking my camera so I'll have pics once we get home :) I'll update then! It's time to go wake everyone up......IT'S PUMP DAY!!!!